I am home again!
– at least for now.
Like many returns after treatment, it tends to be a bit messy!
And while I love being back, there is a quiet tension all around me; the urge to clean and organize everything, and just reset my surroundings completely – and the awareness that I need to slow down.
So this spring, as winter here in Norway is heavily drawing its final breath, my main focus is to find the balance between movement and stillness. Between doing everything all at once – and doing nothing, allowing myself to to just sit down and relax.
This is massive to me – as there is nothing more satisfactory than a freshly cleaned space, yet at the same time – my brain has a deep need for a calmer daily rhytm; one that my body can actually sustain.
Easter in Norway, has always held a particular social importance; regardless of religiosity. Yes, it is technically a religious holiday – but culturally, it is almost like a collective breath of fresh air.
In a single week its as if the darkness of winter dissapears, as (many) families gather at their cabins, read (or watch!) crime novels, eating oranges and chocolate, while the snow quietly melts outside, into a promise of spring.
And it truly is a promise!
Much like the older celebrations of the spring equinox, still celebrated here in the north we slowly see the sun return, day by day – as life ‘begins again’.

Perhaps this is why Easter feels so different this year.
Because, coming home now does not feel like returning to what was. Instead, it feels like stepping intoo something else completely, something new – that I can’t quite put my finger on, or even fully understand.
But it is a feeling of having a different pace of life. A new awareness of who I am becoming, and what needs to change for me to accomplish this.
And maybe that is what this Easter holds for me – not just a time for tradition, rest and reflection, but also a threshold into something new.
No doubt, it feels a little scary – but I am also very exited to see what life brings!
Happy Easter!
– Silje
